I went to see the specialist today about my stomach ulcer. After they did the scan, I was told by the doctor that it is still there and it has been two months. Well, they did a biopsy (lost count of the number of times I have gone through this medical procedure) to run more tests to see whether everything is ok.
If ever there is such a thing called luck, I sometimes wonder when it will run out in my life. So far all the biopsy results have shown that the ulcers are benign. I just wonder whether one day it would be told to me that it is the opposite. Well, I pray that God have mercy on me. I guess I will only know next Thursday.
I shall leave it as that. I cannot always go on a roller-coaster ride each time I am faced with a setback like this. I am anxious, no doubt, but I have to go on with life.
I guess God knows best - He probably has His reasons for letting me go through all these after 9 years since I was first told of my kidney injury and the numerous ulcers that kept recurring after that. I hope to find out the answers when I really get to meet Him one day.
Funnily, I sometimes feel that I am like a product in a company that has so many faults that it would be wiser for the organisation to write it off than to always keep repairing it. Basically not cost-effective in the long run. I just wonder when I would be written off. Haha. Perhaps He is not done with me yet.
Well, may the Lord's will be done in my life.
I guess this morning when I could not sleep and in the end I spent the time talking to God and listening to Him was His way of ministry to me - basically assuring me that He is still there. Sometimes I really wonder whether I should cry or laugh about my pilgrim's journey that I have travelled so far. Actually thinking about it now, I have laughed and cried several times. No matter what, thanks be to Him for bringing me thus far.
Tomorrow the Youth Ministry Mission Team 2006 will be meeting up for a debrief. We will also be having a cook-out. I am looking forward to it especially after two months since we came back. Just curious to know how every one is coping with life especially in this fast-pace society like Singapore.
I have been planning the whole of today what I will be cooking. I even went to the supermarket to check out the ingredients I need. Haha. I pray God will guide my hands and I hope my siblings-in-Christ will like the food prepared. I also pray all of us will have a great time of fellowship and may the get-together build up the body of Christ.
Long day tomorrow. Time to sleep. :)
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." James 1:2-8
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12
If ever there is such a thing called luck, I sometimes wonder when it will run out in my life. So far all the biopsy results have shown that the ulcers are benign. I just wonder whether one day it would be told to me that it is the opposite. Well, I pray that God have mercy on me. I guess I will only know next Thursday.
I shall leave it as that. I cannot always go on a roller-coaster ride each time I am faced with a setback like this. I am anxious, no doubt, but I have to go on with life.
I guess God knows best - He probably has His reasons for letting me go through all these after 9 years since I was first told of my kidney injury and the numerous ulcers that kept recurring after that. I hope to find out the answers when I really get to meet Him one day.
Funnily, I sometimes feel that I am like a product in a company that has so many faults that it would be wiser for the organisation to write it off than to always keep repairing it. Basically not cost-effective in the long run. I just wonder when I would be written off. Haha. Perhaps He is not done with me yet.
Well, may the Lord's will be done in my life.
I guess this morning when I could not sleep and in the end I spent the time talking to God and listening to Him was His way of ministry to me - basically assuring me that He is still there. Sometimes I really wonder whether I should cry or laugh about my pilgrim's journey that I have travelled so far. Actually thinking about it now, I have laughed and cried several times. No matter what, thanks be to Him for bringing me thus far.
Tomorrow the Youth Ministry Mission Team 2006 will be meeting up for a debrief. We will also be having a cook-out. I am looking forward to it especially after two months since we came back. Just curious to know how every one is coping with life especially in this fast-pace society like Singapore.
I have been planning the whole of today what I will be cooking. I even went to the supermarket to check out the ingredients I need. Haha. I pray God will guide my hands and I hope my siblings-in-Christ will like the food prepared. I also pray all of us will have a great time of fellowship and may the get-together build up the body of Christ.
Long day tomorrow. Time to sleep. :)
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." James 1:2-8
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12
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