Blessings Overflow

How interesting the whole of my Sunday is spent in church from morning to 5pm in the evening. In fact from this Sunday onwards, it will be like that till end November. I am not complaining but I cannot deny that it is very tiring. Though exhausted, I am rejuvenated by the many blessings from God in the various ministries I am involved today.

1) The Youth Ministry Mentors' (YMMs) Bible Study

Though I had to be in church by 8am and I was actually still quite sleepy when I woke up, I thank God that I went anyway. We touched on the topic of the Holy Spirit living in us and how we should always be conscious of His presence in our lives. It was a good reminder for all who were present because many times we, as Christians, live our lives as if the God whom we worship is One who is defeated and powerless. In fact, it is the other way round - He is Almighty and victorious! Jesus, even before He ascended to heaven after His resurrection, promised all His followers that He would not leave them alone to fend for themselves when He is away. Instead He gave us another Counselor and He is none other than the Holy Spirit.

The Spirit lives in us and yet many times we do not tap on His power to go through our daily walk. During the discussion, we challenged each other to start living a Spirit-filled life and see how it can transform all of us and how we can make an impact in the lives of others.

"If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever — the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live." John 14:15-19

"All this I have spoken while still with you. But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:25-27

2) Serving at the 11:15am Service as a Drummer

As mentioned on Friday, I was not too confident in my drumming for the above service. It was shaken after I went for the Master-class session on Monday. Though I am not sure of my proficiency in this anymore, I guess it now leaves me with no other avenues but to trust in God alone to lead me accordingly.

Well, I gave my all and I thank God for pulling me through the session. In fact I had a sister-in-Christ, who is also the Worship and Music Ministry chairperson, affirming me that the band played tighter this morning and that the congregation were able to follow better. Even the Pastor-in-charge said so. All glory be to God for that.

Well, I hope to continue to hone my skills in this area and may the Lord instruct me and the band accordingly.

"May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen." Hebrews 13:20-21

3) The Mission and Vacation-With-A-Purpose (VWAP) Teams' Training

I shared in one of my blogs this week that I was quite discouraged by the responses from the church for the above teams. In fact some decided to back out after they realised they might not be able to meet the commitment level.

Then one night while I was spending some time in prayer, I asked the Lord, if He so willing, to bring in more workers into the harvest fields. I have to confess that I was not too optimistic though I mouthed that prayer to Him.

This afternoon when I was in the training room waiting for the participants to arrive, I was only prepared to receive 9 persons - 4 for the mission team and 5 for the VWAP team. One by one the members came and by the time all were present, there were 15 in all. 6 church members have taken the step of faith to respond at the last-minute. On top of this 15, there will also be four children going. The Lord indeed multiplied and now there are 7 in the mission team and 8 in the VWAP team! Hallelujah!

I believe God will work powerfully through these teams and may He use every individual to touch and make an impact in the lives of those whom they will be reaching out to.

Well, the next few Sundays till 22 November (the day the teams depart for Cambodia) have been set aside for training and planning. It is my prayer that the Lord will continue to show every one what He wants us to do. I have to confess that there are a lot to be done both administratively and spiritually but I want to trust God to prepare the way for us all.

It will also be tiring physically and mentally but I shall let God refresh me constantly till the day I come back from the trip which is 26 November.

"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." Acts 1:8

I was having a super-late lunch (or should I say early dinner?) at 5 plus after the training session was over. As I was eating, a sister-in-Christ, who is part of the mission team, came into the church office. When she saw me, she told me she has been praying for me every day and that her son (one of the four children going) also does that every morning. When I heard that, I was very touched. What she said gave me a boost in my service to the Lord and His people. I guess my Father knew I needed a refreshment and He did it through that sister. Thanks be to Him for that and for the dear sister and her son!

I am watching the President's Star Charity on television now. This event has been carried out year after year and there are a lot of other charity drives held annually. One may complain that it is a little too much to keep asking for donations all the time but the need is real. There are many who may not be as blessed as others. I also believe the needy individuals or families do not feel good receiving from others their donations but they simply have no choice. If we are not the ones helping these persons, then who would? I hope the Lord will not forsake them.

Well, I am emotionally drained now. Sometimes I cannot comprehend why there are such disparities. Only God knows and I sure hope He is doing something for those are struggling and that He will also open the hearts and eyes of those who are more well-off to bless those who are not so.

Time for me to key off. All thanks and praise to God for today and for all that I have learnt and have been blest with.

Different But No Difference

Tonight is soccer and rugby galore! There was the New Zealand - Romania match which the All Blacks won! This means they have been unbeaten since Day One of the World Cup. I missed this game though as I was out with a dear brother-in-Christ, a sister-in-Christ and their son to the Singapore Zoo and then dinner.

Next was the Australia - Canada game which the Ozzies won. They are also another team still unbeaten. It is such a waste that the All Blacks and the Ozzies cannot meet in the Finals due to the way the matches have been arranged.

Then came the soccer matches where Liverpool played against Wigan. The Reds were slow in capitalising the game but in the end, they won with only one goal in the second half. It was during this period where I switched between four channels - I was also catching other matches like the West Ham - Arsenal game (the latter won); the Chelsea - Fulham game (ended in a draw); Wales and Fiji rugby game (the latter was winning when I tuned to that channel).

Anyway, this shows what a fanatic I am when it comes to the Rugby World Cup and also the English Premier League. I do not know how to cope with watching the future matches when I start work on Monday.

Today has been a fun day for me as I went to the zoo with my dear siblings-in-Christ! We went to watch all the animal shows available. I had a great time playing with the couple's baby. But I now understand how tiring parents can be just having to deal with a baby. It is only one day for me handling the little one and I am already so exhausted.

I woke up late this morning as I was up watching the England - Tonga rugby game at 2:55am. I was banging for the latter to win but they lost in the end.

Thank God I had sufficient sleep after the match. Just before I left for the zoo, I spent some moment in quiet with God. Throughout that period, I was interceding for unity in the Body of Christ.

I was praying for this area of concern as lately I have seen and heard of brothers and sisters-in-Christ clashing with one another because of diversity of character. Some examples are: a sister-in-Christ always taunting another sister; a brother-in-Christ cannot stand another brother because he talks too much; a sister-in-Christ's bad impression of a brother's ways of doing things; siblings-in-Christ having rifts because one gossips about another and the other got to know about it and is now hurt and bitter.

There are many more incidents but I shall leave it as that. Though I mentioned all these, I have to admit myself that I am also guilty of causing disunity at times when I begin to judge another.

In my prayers, I pleaded with the Lord to open the eyes of every one and to allow us to see that we are actually "killing" one another when we should be standing together as God's family. I learnt this as I was interceding - "Though we are different; there is no difference."

We are all made differently and one's character differs from another. Sometimes there are clashes due to our fallen nature where we begin to judge each other's characters. Some may think that they are better than others. The interesting conclusion is this - though sometimes we judge one another because of the way we behave, we are actually no different from the person whom we judge because like it or not, we are all fallen creatures. If that is the case, who are we to say that the other person is worst than us.

I also prayed that the Lord will remind all Christians of His grace where He did not judge us for having sinned against Him. Instead He dispensed grace by sending His Son not to destroy us but to die for our sins and redeem us from the bondages of sin and death.

If God is showing grace to us, who are we to not do likewise? It is very sad that we see some siblings-in-Christ as our enemies when our very adversary is the devil himself.

Anyway, in order for unity to happen in God's family, it has to start with me. If I am not doing it, I cannot expect others to follow suit. May the Lord help me as I struggle in this practice because I know I will fail at times. The tendency to judge one another is always higher than to accept one another's differences. Well, pressing on is the way to go when it comes to this and only with God in our sight will we minimise clashes between siblings-in-Christ.

I shall sleep now as I have to play the drums tomorrow. I also need to be at the Mission Training session. I was quite discouraged when a sister-in-Christ who signed up for the Vacation-With-A-Purpose trip has decided to give it a miss due to work commitment. No matter what, I still want to trust that God will use the remaining ones to make an impact on the lives of the Khmer people.

"Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful." Colossians 3:13-15

We Call; He Responds

I just had a very refreshing bath. I came back not too long ago from supper with some Youth Ministry Mentors (YMMs) and youths. Before that I was at the Worship Team rehearsal. I am rostered to play the drums this Sunday for the 11:15am service.

I have to confess that Monday's experience at the Masterclass session has kind of instilled certain fears and uncertainties in me with regard to playing the drums. In fact every one in the band was being very conscious of the way they were playing.

We took quite a while to figure out the chords and how the songs are to be arranged. I could also sense certain frustrations in every one. I guess we were trying our best to play well and in the course of it, there was a bit of tension.

I was a little worked up and confused as various members asked me to play different rythmns. It was not that I did not want to listen to their suggestions but when the worship leader sent out the songs and the MP3 files, I followed the way it was being played as I was encouraged to take notice of the drumming sequence. When I was told to do otherwise during the practice, I just did not know which one to follow.

Anyway, we took a break before trying the songs again. I took that short moment to ask God to just help me. I basically needeed discernment as to how best I should play so that I would not throw anybody off. Well, when we went into the second round, I basically just let loose and allowed the Holy Spirit to guide me. Thanks be to God all went pretty well and I could see that every one was more satisfied. Well, I will continue to let the Lord lead and guide me on Sunday. May He be pleased with our offering of praise.

I am actually very tired now. I thought I type this blog first before I enter slumberland. My heart is burdened for a couple of people - I will spend some time in prayer after this and commit these persons into God's hands.

Okie, I just realised there is a rugby game between England and Tonga at 2:55am. Hmmm... sleep or rugby. Sigh. I guess my next blog will reveal which I chose. Tough choice! Haha.

Good night to all!

"In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears." Psalm 18:6

Trust Not Your Gadgets!

I got two scares today and it was not a good feeling for me. Coincidentally they involved electronic gadgets and how these two glitches affected others.

One was in the afternoon when I was in Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean. A dear brother-in-Christ called to inform me that my MSN programme apparently sent out a virus file to all the people who are in my contact list.

I got a shock when I heard that. The call I received actually solved a mystery when at one point my MSN kept turning off and there was this notice informing me that another computer was accessing my MSN. Anyway, I immediately had my password changed and the problem stopped. I felt so bad that a virus file had been sent to my friends and I wrote a note of apology to all affected. I sure hope this is the first and last encounter. I am sorry if you are one of victims.

The second incident happened about an hour ago when I was informed by a church office staff that one of my Missions Committee members came to church for the committee meeting when it was actually cancelled. I was also told that the member was angry. I was puzzled that this sibling-of-Christ still came when I had already sent out a sms early this morning to inform every one of the cancellation.

Anyway, I tried calling this person but to no avail. My heart got very heavy as I did not mean for my committee member to make a wasted trip. A while later I got a call from this dear sibling and everything was settled when I gave my explanation.

I guess should there be another cancellation or postponement of meetings or appointments in future, I should not just depend on the sms but to make a call to every one involved so that such misunderstandings will not happen again. Guess the message I sent out is now in the sms purgatory.

This may not seem like a life and death situation but it is always incident like this that can create a rift or misunderstanding in God's family. The evil one would usually capitalise and blow the matter out of proportion. If I can minimise this from happening, I would.

Anyway, thanks be to God both incidents have been resolved.

Well, that is all. A sigh of relief indeed.

"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called — one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it. This is why it says: "When he ascended on high, he led captives in his train and gave gifts to men." (What does "he ascended" mean except that he also descended to the lower, earthly regions? He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe.) It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." Ephesians 4:2-16

Doing Good To All

I am now at Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean. I just met two ex-students of mine for tea. I had a good time of catching up with them. I am very glad that they are doing well in their career. One of them is leaving for the U.S. soon for a new job offer. I got a call from them last week, asking whether we could meet up. I readily accepted the invite since we have not seen each other for almost three years.

Anyway, I have been in the cafe since around 12pm. My heart became burden for three persons: one is a middle-aged lady who is sitting on a couch in front of me; the other two were a middle-aged man with another man who is probably in his early thirties.

For the lady, I have seen her a couple of times in the cafe. She is always alone. She seems to be in deep thoughts all the time. She would only order a bottle of mineral water and she would usually sit on the same couch for a couple of hours not doing anything.

Every time I see her, I would say a prayer for her but today my heart feels exceptionally heavy. I do not know why but as I was praying for her just now, I asked the Lord to provide for this lady someone whom she could confide with regarding certain issues which could be troubling her. I also asked the Lord to protect her. I hope all will be fine for her.

As for the two men I mentioned, my sense is that they are a "couple". I cannot control the actions of individuals as they have the freedom to do whatever they like. I was uncomfortable though when they began to do intimate things like holding each other's hands. One of them even moved over to sit with his friend to have some photos taken together and he was very close to where I am seated. A couple of times one of the guys' shoulders kept rubbing against mine. Initially I decided to leave it as that but when it became too frequent, I had to sound it off to them. The guy further away from me gave me a rather hostile look but the one nearer to me apologised.

I think it is important for every one (myself included) in public to behave themselves. What I told the two men might seem as if I was being prejudiced and judgmental but I would have given my piece of mind to anyone else who are behaving in a manner that may be uncomfortable or disturbing to others around.

I have no qualms stating this as well - I said a prayer for the two individuals that God will protect them. A burden that one day they might just get themselves into trouble. What sort of trouble, I do not know. I also will not deny that my other prayer request for them was for God to show them that whatever they are getting themselves into is wrong in the eyes of my God. I know some who are reading my blog may disagree. I guess this is one area of life where not all will see eye-to-eye. I stress again and this is not to protect my personal interest - the prayer I whispered was out of concern for them as would my burden for the lady I wrote in the earlier paragraph. I have no right to judge anyone as I myself still sin regularly.

Anyway, so much for that. Tonight there is supposed to be a Missions Committee meeting but due to a couple of apologies by more than half of the members, I had no choice but to postpone it to another day. I have been looking forward to it but I guess I shall continue to be excited about the meeting when I decide on an alternative date. :)

Time for me to key off and listen to some songs that I need to play tomorrow during the Worship Team rehearsal. I have to say that after the Masterclass session on Monday, I have some reservations now playing the drums. Haha.

No matter what, it is my prayer that God will be pleased with my service this week.

"Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one should carry his own load. Anyone who receives instruction in the word must share all good things with his instructor. Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers." Galatians 6:1-10

Rock The Church And The World Through Our Service!

I had a game of touch-rugby with my students at the Padang. We were playing against another team. We won in the end. This is the first time I ran since a couple of months and I praise the Lord I felt no pain at all. I did pull a muscle around my back while trying to avoid a touch but that should recover in a couple of days.

I had a talk with one of my students who shared with me his desire to serve in his church. I asked him what is holding him. His reply was that he thinks he is not ready. Below were some of the things we talked about.

I think we can never be ready to serve the Lord. What is important, I guess, is our availability. I asked my student what then would make him ready? He gave points like we need to know our gifts; we need to pray about our desire in serving; we need to speak to the leader of the ministry we are interested in to enquire further the commitment and expectations; we need to be consistent in our walk with God.

I asked him next whether he has done all the points he had mentioned and he said, "yes." I smiled and told him that he is actually ready - the only thing that is holding him back is the human rationalisation that we sometimes have - the lie that the devil places in us about having to be very sure in order to serve. Most of the time, we can be affirmed of our gifts and calling when we start serving. In doing so, brothers and sisters-in-Christ serving in the same ministry would then be able to affirm and encourage. Let us also remember that when we go by faith and start serving God even if we are not fully ready, He will equip us accordingly. His resources are plentiful!

Many times I give reasons like "I am not spiritually right" but the thing is when we are stagnating in our walk, the only other way is to start walking. Yes, it is a right thing not to jump suddenly into serving God when we are not right but there reaches a point where we need to move on and let God guide us along the way.

I believe all of us know that we need to serve God but many times, we become too complacent to the point where we do not do anything about it at all. I know of a couple of my siblings-in-Christ who are in this state now and my heart is burdened for them. Some of them have gifts and strengths which, when put to use, can make a great impact to the ministry and the people but they are just not doing anything about it.

Some told me about the failings of the ministries and leadership as reasons for not serving. I cannot deny that these shortcomings or failures may throw the ministries and church in disarray but let us also be forgiving and gracious to know that the church consists of imperfect people - humans who are trying their best to do what is right though at times, while trying to do that, mistakes are being committed and people are being stumbled. The church must have God's people holding each other's hand as we move; not by-standers making comments and criticising while the rest who are actually doing the work are trying their best to be the kind of servants God wants them to be.

I implore to all my siblings-in-Christ to not just stand by the wayside. Have we ever considered that God may use us to make a difference in that ministry or church? Never belittle ourselves when God the Almighty, who created us and in whom we serve, can do great things through us.

God's army must have soldiers like all of us who are always ready to be used by Him. If we are not ready, many casualities will be inflicted and these injured comrades are not any strangers but they are actually our very own siblings-in-Christ. Even if they are not injured, many will be burnt-out because it is always the same people doing the same work in the church.

Before I end, I want to send out this plea - let us from today onwards arise and avail ourselves to God and may our readiness rock the ministries; the church and the world! Don't believe it? Start serving and see how God moves!

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." Colossians 3:23-24

"Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free." Ephesians 6:7-8

"Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen." 1 Peter 4:10-11

Bringing Joy To The Afflicted

I just arrived in Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean. In about two hours' time, I will be meeting a couple to discuss with them further about their wedding plans. I feel bad that I have not been following up with them as regularly as I should due to my occupation with mum's medical condition and also Missions Ministry commitments.

Anyway, I am looking forward to catching up with my brother and sister-in-Christ and I hope from today onwards, I will be more pro-active in helping them prepare for their big day.

It has been a long day. In the morning I had to bring mum for her medical check-up. Initially I thought was the first week of October. She woke me up at 8am and told me about it. I seem to always get her appointments wrong. :(

Anyway, the doctor did a scan and ran a couple of tests. So far so good. Praise the Lord. My mum's diabetic condition has also improved. I hope the rest of the tests will turn out well when the report is released in a week's time.

It took quite a while for mum to complete the check-up. While waiting for her, I decided to go to the children's ward to visit some of the nurses I know and also to bring some cheer to the children. While talking to the staff, the emergency buzzer from one of the wards sounded off. One child had a seizure. I followed the nurses and while they were attending to the girl, I prayed for her. I asked the Lord to relieve her of the pain and tension of muscles. About 10 minutes later, the staff drew the curtains. The girl's condition had stabilised. Thanks be to God for that.

I went closer to her bed. Rebecca, a 11-year old girl, was conscious. Her eyes were teary. When I smiled at her, she just stared at me. I introduced myself to her and smiled again. It was then she returned my smile. One of the nurses standing next to me told me she has brain tumour. When I heard that, my heart went out to her. She is due for an operation on Friday. I hope the Lord will be by her side throughout the surgery and pull her through. Before I left, I prayed for Rebecca once more. I will probably visit her again on Friday just to see how the operation went. I do not know this girl but now that I have interceded for her, I do not wish to stop there but to visit her one more time to bring her another smile. Hope that will make her day.

Chin Chuan, the Coffee Bean staff who is now my friend came to my table and told me his legs are painful as he has been standing and walking for the past 6 hours or so serving the customers and also clearing the tables. I advised him to sit down for a while and he smiled at me. He is really diligent in carrying out his duty - ensuring that the floor, even to the very corner of it is clean. I hope the Lord will always bless and provide for him.

Well, time for me to stop here. It has been a wonderful day. :)

"An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up." Proverbs 12:25

There Is Always Room To Learn

Tonight was a humbling experience for me. It was a rebuke for my complacency in my service to the Lord. I am thankful though that I received this wake-up call. It will definitely help me not to take things for granted especially in serving God and the church.

The Worship Team attended a Master-class course where some instructors from the Methodist School of Music came to critic everything that the team did - from the style of play for certain songs; to the flow from one song to another; to the vocal proficiency; to the dynamics of the band; to the variations one can provide; to even the volume control of each instrument.

In my more than 10 years of playing the drums where everything was self-taught, I thought that I have reached a level where I am "good" enough. Tonight, God reminded me through the instructors to always desire to learn more especially in techniques and never be satisfied but to press on to be a musician who is skillful and really makes a joyful noise to the Lord.

Every month I am rostered to play the drums at least once and when I play, I always thought that I do not need any one to tell me what to do. Sometimes I got emotional and defensive when a brother or sister-in-Christ suggested that I should do this and that. There were also times when I let my mood affect the way I play. Tonight when I was told what I should be doing, my pride was broken. In the suggestions made by this dear brother-in-Christ who is a professionally trained drummer, I realised I was nothing compared to the enormous amount of knowledge he has in this instrument. Most of the things he asked me to do, I could not. All these made me moody - sadly this affected the rest in the team as well.

I cannot deny that it was a lousy feeling. At one point I felt ashamed to be holding the drum-sticks. I whispered a prayer to the Lord asking for His forgiveness. This feeling I mentioned is not one where it will cause me to give up drumming but it was a challenge for me to learn more about this skill. I used to want to attend a drumming course to master the proper techniques but pride told me I did not have to as I thought I was there already.

I shared with the team that it is time for me to sign up for drumming lessons so that when I play, I can give the Lord my best in worship as He deserves the best!

Some of you reading this will probably think I am being too hard on myself. I do not think so. I think one should not always rest on his laurels when serving God. Well, even if I am too hard on myself, I think it is good for me as it allows me to desire to learn constantly. Life is about learning - the time one stops doing that is when he is dead. I am still very much alive so I shall continue to press on to let God teach me through others this skill that He has given me.

On a lighter note, I have never felt the night so long before - my heart was beating doubly fast; I was perspiring in an air-con worship hall; I could feel new stomach ulcers popping from everywhere; I was shaking at one point especially when the instructor was standing on my left watching every move I made; if there was a hole in the ground, I was all ready to jump into it!

Anyway, thanks be to God for waking my ideas up. He is truly good and gracious to show me my follies and pride. This shows me a lot about His love and care for me and every one present in the hall. Throughout the stressful session, I still had this picture of God standing by my side not with the kind of impression that He is breathing down my throat but one that says, "You can do it, my son. Press on."

I am physically, mentally and emotionally drained now. I think tonight is one of the rare nights when I can sleep before 2am. :)

To God be all thanks and praise!

"Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy." Psalm 33:3

Rest In The Lord

It has been a couple of days since I last blog. The weekend has been a busy and exhausting period for me. For three weeks in a row, I have been going on either conference or retreats: first was the Young Methodist Leaders' Conference (YMLC); then it was the Youth Ministry Mentors' (YMMs) Retreat; and on Saturday it was the Local Church Executive Committee (LCEC) Retreat.

On top of that, the church kindergarten also had a Mid-Autumn Celebration for the students and their parents on Saturday. I enjoyed the time spend with the little ones as I took pictures of them. When my photography duty was done, I basically played with them in a game of catching. I am getting a little too old for that but I still had fun. I was also trying to encourage two other kids (both girls) to attend the Children's Ministry. They lived very near church, just a few houses away but I was told their parents do not allow them to do so. I pray one day God will soften the hearts of their parents.

The day was not done yet after the children's programme. I went next to celebrate a dear sister-in-Christ's birthday with a few other siblings-in-Christ at Brewerks in Clarke Quay. We met up at 9:30pm and by the time we ate, drank and fellowshipped, it was already 1am. I reached home at around 1:30am. By the time I washed up and unpacked my camera equipment, it was close to 2:30am.

I had to wake up at 7am to attend the YMM Bible Study session at 8am; then I had to teach at the Youth Ministry (YM); then it was to the Plaza to conduct a Mission and Vacation-With-A-Purpose (VWAP) trips' briefing for members who have signed up for them. The briefing was done for both services; then it was off to celebrate another sister-in-Christ's birthday at Ang Mo Kio Hub.

I thank God I was able to go home and catch a wink or two for about two hours. After that it was out again to meet the running gang for dinner at Heartland Mall in Hougang.

Typing all of the above-mentioned is already so tiring. :)

Anyway, I learnt something about my teaching ability when I was conducting the YM lesson. I realised I tried to cramp too many things (especially examples) in the limited time given to me. Though I had the script all prepared, I did not use it - hence I overshot the time given. Anyway, it was a good lesson learnt on my part which I pray God will continue to teach me.

I want to praise the Lord for the number of members who have signed up for the Missions and VWAP trips. Mission trainings commence this coming Sunday for the next 4 weeks. Though I will be busy during those Sundays, I am also looking forward to preparing the trip with my fellow siblings-in-Christ. May the Lord use us to empower our fellow Khmer Christians and also to touch the lives of those who have yet to know who Jesus is.

This week is going to be my last week before I start work officially. Well, from the look of my schedules, I doubt I have much free time as I have a couple of meetings to attend. I shall look forward to them no matter what.

Well, not much of an encounter with God or people these few days. I shall write more should there be any.

Praise God for pulling me through the weekend! :)

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty." Psalm 91:1

God Is My All

Last night and this morning, I met two sets of brothers-in-Christ for a time of fellowship as we accounted our lives to one another. I have two accountability groups and I thank God for blessing me with every single one of these my siblings-in-Christ.

We came as fellow human beings, with our shortcomings and struggles. At the same time, we also came as Christians, redeemed by the blood of Christ; delivered from darkness to light; made victorious.

I think the power of fellowship is always so great that one can be vulnerable to another without feeling ashamed or ostracised. Instead there are encouragement and prayer support which mean a lot when one is down and out.

Of course, this time spent is not just to pour our woes to one another. It is also a chance for us to testify of God's goodness to one another. Through these, they affirm in us of how real God is and that He will always be there to bring us through every chapter of our lives, just as He had always done in the past! God will always be the same today, yesterday and tomorrow!

After the session, I headed to a friend's place to collect some documents before heading to Botanic Gardens to spend some time with God in reflection especially for the past one year of sabbatical.

In sharing about this, one thing I have to say first - all thanks and praise to God for seeing me through this one year. He has truly taught me to live my life differently; allowing me to do things way beyond my wildest imagination; for pushing my faith to the limit and as a result, strengthening it; for the good and bad experiences I had.

Three main things during this sabbatical impacted my life:-

1) Mum's Cancer

This saga caught every one in the family by surprise but God's timing is always good. It happened during my one year break. I wanted rest during this period but I did not get much of it because of the many things I had to handle at home - ensuring that all needs are met and every one is well. I am thankful that I learnt a lot from these!

God was also gracious to allow the cancer to be detected early and it was done so by a fall that mum had. If not for that incident, no one would have known that mum had cancer of the cervix.

This struggle for the family has also deepened our faith in God. Almost every night, my parents, grandma and I would come together to pray and ask God to bring about complete healing for mum. We pleaded to God for that because then we can testify to others that the God whom we worship is One who is powerful and at the same time, gracious and merciful!

Seeing my grandma going down on her knees and crying before the Lord was heartening. Observing how dad held mum's hands so tightly when he mouthed a word of prayer was touching and assuring that though they quarrelled occasionally, the love between them is deep!

Well, God heard all our cries and now mum is well! Hallelujah!

It is now my plea to the Lord to draw my brother to the foot of the cross and may he one day lift his hands in surrender to the God who has shown much favour to this family which once almost fell apart. I shall continue to pray for his salvation even if it has to take years. I interceded for my parents and grandma's salvation for more than 15 years and God answered. If he could do that, surely He will also do so for my brother.

2) Living Out The Great Commission

At the beginning of my sabbatical I said a prayer to God to help me live my life differently - no more the self-centered kind but instead I shall get to know the people around me. Strangers, that is.

I always thought it is hard to know the people I meet in public. Initially I was hesitant and very self-conscious but over time, it became easier but I had to be thick-skinned. Sometimes I get weird looks from people when I smile at them but I told myself it was alright.

In the course of my opening up to others, I got to know some of them and they come from all walks of life and nationalities. Certain friendships deepened to the point where they came to me for advice regarding their careers (they are the managers of the cafes I frequent); one of them even bought me lozenges when she knew I was down with sore throat and cough; another (a waiter) came and shared with me about his struggles at work and he was one of them who never returned my smile initially. Now he is always the first to smile when we bumped into each other. He even got me a mug of warm water one day when he saw me feeling cold; there is yet another (a waitress) who always calls out my name whenever I pass the cafe she is working in; another (a bookstore staff) came and asked me whether I was okay when he saw me deep in thoughts; a student from China calls me occasionally to ask for help in her learning of English.

There are more but these are just some people whom I would not have known if I did not make a conscious effort to take the first step. Many times we passed by people as if they are just an object - we forget that they are the very people whom God called us to reach out to.

Was it tough? Sometimes but it is possible to allow people to open up when we ourselves learn to open up first.

3) Ministries In Church

I also made a conscious effort to get to know my siblings-in-Christ in church especially those from the Youth Ministry. Maybe because of my age, there are some who think it is weird for me to want to know them. I confess I have scared some of them but this will not stop me from opening up and bridging the gap between the young and the old. Many have told me it is tough. I refuse to believe in that and I will one day prove to them that it can happen and there is power when the young and old come together!

I am also learning to cope with my responsibility as the chairperson of the Missions Ministry. There are many outstanding matters that I need to handle and a couple of them are under the "urgent" category. They can be daunting and frustrating but I have learnt over time that it is God working through me and in His time, everything will fall in place. All I need is to just follow His guidance and all will be well. It brings a lot of peace whenever I remind myself of this. I hope God can use me even more now that I have committed myself to another year of service in this area.

Well, there will be the inertia when I go back to the teaching profession on 1 October but I am looking forward to it. May all that I have learnt this past year be put to further practice. May the Lord be my help.

So was it good break? It could not have been better! Praise and glory to my God Almighty, my Help, my Deliverer, my Friend, my Father, my Teacher, my Comforter, my Healer, my Counselor, and my Provider.

I am tempted to write more but I shall leave it as that! :)

“May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.” 2 Corinthians 13:14

Keeping Our Perspective Right

Today is a busy day for me. I woke up 5:45am to meet a dear brother at 6:30am for a time of fellowship and to encourage one another in our ministries. I had a great time spent with him.

In the course of our conversation, we reminded each other that whatever we do in ministries, we are doing them, first for the Lord and then for the people. It was good to sound this off to each other as it then keeps our perspective right especially during times when we face discouragement in service. It was quite amazing how we were still laughing and feeling joyful when we shared about the down-side of serving God and the church. I guess we were mindful that even though there may be obstacles along the way and that we may be down-trodden at that point but at the end of it all, God will deliver us eventually.

We had our time of catching up at the airport as we needed to also receive a dear brother who just completed his Masters programme in the United Kingdom. We rejoiced with him for having done well in his course, topping the class. Praise the Lord!

After welcoming this brother of ours, I had to rush from the East to the West. I needed to be in campus for a meeting. It was a long ride - took the time to catch up on my reading. I also played with two kids by the name of Jiahui and Jinfa. Though they have Chinese names, their English were excellent.

Meeting went well and now I have been informed of my responsibilities. I am looking forward to them and may the Lord be my help when I begin work again on 1 October.

I left immediately after the meeting. I am now at the Millennia Walk Coffee Bean. As I am typing now, an ex-student from my faculty is doing a filming session. She saw me and gave me a wave when I looked towards her direction. I have never taught her before but we did see each other a couple of times before in campus. We did not speak as she was busy with the filming. What a surprise. :)

Anyway, I am thankful that I have been able to get some work done while drinking my tea - I had to send a couple of emails out and I managed to complete them. I also needed to make some appointments with some people and those were also done. Thanks be to God.

After this I need to meet three brothers-in-Christ for a time of accountability session. I am looking forward to this and it is my prayer we will build each other up as we update each other about what God has done in our lives for the past two weeks.

Okie, I shall go to the counter to ask for a mug of warm water - it is super-cold in the cafe.

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." Colossians 3:23-24

You're Not Called To Be Normal

I am now seated at the cafeteria of Seletar Country Club. Today is my church's Charity Golf Tournament. The response has been overwhelming to the point where we had to turn away golfers who registered late. The number of participants has also increased. Thanks be to God for that!

Well, after the last flight left for their game, I went to the Reading Room to finish up the lesson preparation for this Sunday's Youth Ministry (YM) session. I was struggling to keep awake as I was very tired - probably from last night's leaders' meeting. I had a power-nap and when I woke up, I was fresh and went on to plan the lesson.

I learnt a lot since I started preparing this teaching session especially in how I need to always live my life differently from the world. I think I have shared before that it is tough to do this as I have been doing what the world does since birth. Of course after I became a Christian, I have been striving to live my life according to what the Bible teaches me. I must confess it has been a great struggle but I will press on.

I was reminded that in order for me to live my life differently, there are four areas that I need to change:-

1) Mindset

I must change the way I think towards people, problems, situations and opportunities.

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." Philippians 4:8

2) Motives

I must change the way I pursue my own goals, pleasures, and ambitions. Everything should be done with a view to honouring God and advancing His purposes in the world.

"Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31

3) Morality

Because of the new mindset and motive for living, I should willingly follow the highest of moral standards - the standards of a holy God.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." 1 Corinthians 6:13

4) Material Things

In everything, my focus should be on the spiritual, not the physical - that I should not get caught up in the material pursuits, but use the material things for spiritual purposes.

"But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it." 1 Timothy 6:6-7

Well, the four 'M's to "You're Not Called To Be Normal." Tough in reality but possible with the help of my God Almighty.

Okie dokes, time to key off and perhaps head to the conference room to see whether the organisers are back from wherever they were.

Hot day, I must say! :)

I Am God's Instrument

I came back not too long ago from the Local Church Executive Committee (LCEC) meeting. I have been re-elected as the Missions Ministry chairperson for another year in office. Just as much as it is a privilege to serve the Lord and His people in the church, I also carry this burden of giving my best to encourage the members to carry out the Great Commission God has given to all Christians. May the Lord continue to be my help and may He glorified in all that I do.

It has been a long and tiring day for me as I was in church since the late morning. I decided to get some work done for the Missions Ministry and also to prepare for the LCEC meeting where I needed to present an update on a matter. I have been troubled over this for a couple of months already but by the grace of God, He has provided a way out and I shall go ahead from here.

I still need His counsel and guidance and I know in His time, all will be resolved and that this action taken will allow a people-group in the region to grow in their skills in every aspect concerning their lives (spiritually, physically and economically).

I needed to answer some queries from the other leaders and again, thanks be to God, I was able to have Him in my sight as I answered accordingly. I fumbled here and there in my answers but at least now the LCEC understands the approach the Missions Committee is taking. I have been in leadership for so many years and still I am nervous whenever I needed to present something or answer some questions.

I do not know whether I have shared this before - I realised no matter how daunting a task can be in my role as a chairperson as in the many issues that I need to look into or the new plans I will be executing in the near future, God will still see them through eventually. I have to remind myself constantly that I am a vessel being used by Him. With my own abilities and understanding, I may not be able to carry out my role effectively but with God, I can! Sometimes I forgot about this, hence I get discouraged but I will try to remember God's omni-presence in this new church-year and serve Him and His people with joy.

In another hour, there is a Liverpool vs Porto Champions League match. I am exhausted but I want to watch. I also need to wake up early later as I have to be at Seletar Country Club for my church's Charity Golf Tournament. I know what I should do but I just refused to sleep, knowing that I would be missing a good game. Haha.

Anyway, I am going to stop here as I need to pack my camera equipment for the tournament.

"In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble. If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work." 2 Timothy 2:20-21

Dare To Be Different

I am about to leave the cafe soon but I thought before I do so, that I blog a little.

It has been a fruiful time spent in Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean after I went to have my knees checked at the hospital. The doctor did a scan on my knee-caps and he has found a considerable portion of both knees healed. This affirms the healing that I received during the Young Methodist Leaders' Conference (YMC) two weekends ago. Hallelujah!

I asked the specialist whether I could start running again - his advice was to lay off for a while and let it recover further. Well, I shall heed his words because I remembered the preacher mentioned at the conference, that though God has brought about healing that one should not be stupid to aggravate it again by being too impulsive or impatient. :)

The specialist was surprise to see my knees recover so fast and he asked me whether I have been faithfully taking the glucosamine capsules. I confessed to him that I have not been an obedient patient - the consumption of this medication has been irregular. I shared with him about the healing ministry at YMLC and he gave me a smile upon hearing it.

Anyway, I have been spending the time at the cafe preparing for the Youth Ministry (YM) lesson that I am conducting this Sunday. It was a late request by the YM Coordinator but I accepted it anyway as the topic is one that is close to my heart and I have been practising it throughout the past one year of my sabbatical.

It is about living my life as one called to be different and I have been doing that in many circumstances and situations. I hope in sharing what I have learnt and also my testimonies, my younger siblings-in-Christ will be able to acknowledge that it is possible to live differently and at the same time make an impact in someone else's life, without any one branding them as weird.

I only completed the introduction but I am contented to leave it as that for today. It has been a joy preparing the lesson and I am looking forward to the next few days as I attempt to complete the rest, with God's help! :)

Oh yah, I got to know two tourists from Canada who were attempting to log into the free wireless access but found difficulty doing it. They were asking for help from another gentleman but he was using a Mac and was unsure how to help them. Though they did not ask me, I decided to be thick-skinned and went to their table to see whether I could assist. As they did not have an account to log on, I used mine instead and I was glad the access was successful.

I went on to do my work while they surfed the net. Just before they left, I was surprise when one of them passed me a drink of another Ultimate Ice Blended. They said it was a token of their thanks. I jokingly told them that with that drink, the usage of the wireless service is not free anymore. They laughed and explained that they needed to use the internet as they had to update their family members back home about the progress of their father's recent operation at Mount Elizabeth Hospital. He had to go for a heart by-pass and the surgery was a success.

Well, I pray Darlene and Johan's dad will recover sooner than later and that God will grant peace to their family members back in Canada.

I guess that is all. To God be the glory for everything that I have experienced so far! :)

"Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did." 1 John 2:6

Pushing Faith To The Limit

I watched a DVD with the Youth Ministry Mentors (YMMs) last night. The title of the show was “Facing The Giants.”

It was about an American Football Team. The coach was trying his best to bring the team to victory. After six years on the helm, he was still unable to do so. He was also facing the sack as many (staff, fans and parents of the football players) were getting impatient with his coaching methods.

On top of that, he and his wife have been trying for a baby for four years but to no avail. His car was breaking down on him. His house stinks. Everything did not seem to go right with him.

One day he broke down before the Lord out of sheer desperation and sought for His help and intervention. His wife was also discouraged and she too cried out to the Lord.

There was also this particular man who has been praying for revival in the school. Every day he would walk the land of the school and interceded for every student. One day this man came into the coach’s office and read him a Bible passage that he felt God wanted him to speak to the down-trodden instructor.

The coach admitted his struggle and asked the man whether God really wanted him to listen to the Bible passage and whether God could work in his life.

The man then related a parable about two farmers who were praying for rain. The difference between the two was one of them went out to prepare the field in anticipation for the rain but the other did nothing. The gist of that story was to challenge the coach whether he is willing to continue with his life while waiting for the Lord to deliver him from his predicament.

Upon hearing that story and challenge, the coach began to prepare the field as he evaluated on his team philosophy. He asked the Lord for guidance and he got it. At the end of it all, he stood before the team and challenged every member to consider honouring God in their playing – that in both victory and defeat, God’s name shall be praised.

Things began to brighten up – the team started to win matches; the coach even got a gift of a new car; he was not given the sack; etc.

Throughout watching the show, I was asking myself, can this really happen in real life as so vividly portrayed in reel life? Many of the YMMs, including myself, laughed and sometimes made comments when a miracle happened in the build-up of the movie. Was the laughter one of disbelief that this can ever happen in a Christian life?

I guess so. What I learnt from this whole two hours spent in front of the TV screen was that God can do the impossible if we can just push our faith to the limit. The question is - are we willing to go to that limit? I trust that if we can just do that, our God Almighty can do wonders beyond our wildest imagination.

The prayer by the man for a revival in the school was answered. In one segment of the movie, it showed many students turning their lives to Christ. Am I willing to pray for revival in my own church? Am I willing to walk the whole of my church and pray for the Lord to work mightily in the life of every member? I sure hope I am willing to and believe in my heart that God will move.

The prayer by the coach to honour God in all he does was answered – am I willing to do likewise? It is never easy to honour God in everything and it is my desire to do just that in every aspect of my life.

The prayer by both the coach and his wife for God to lift their barrenness were answered. They were blest with a baby after 4 tries. 2 years after the first baby, they got their second child. How about my own life? Am I willing to trust God with some things that I desire but seem to fade away as time goes by? Am I willing to keep waiting?

I guess so long as there is hope, one can still press on. I thank God for reminding me of the above-mentioned and I hope I will prepare the field while waiting for the rain. I also pray that my faith will not just remain where it is now but that it will grow even deeper as I get to know more of the Lord as each day goes by. I also ask of Him that in both victory and defeat that I face in this life’s journey, I will give thanks to God at all times and in all circumstances.

Well, thanks be to God for the retreat!

I was trying to sleep but could not though I am feeling tired from the retreat. I decided to pop by Coffee Bean in Millennia Walk and write this blog and also to prepare for the Local Church Executive Committee meeting this Tuesday.

Anyway, right in front of my table is this group of 11 individuals and from the time I came, they have been talking about stocks, shares and growing their money. They are talking so loudly that I could hear every single word spoken from every one.

It is interesting to hear them speculate what to buy and what to hold. They were wondering in 10 to 20 years' time whether they could retire. There is this one particular man who kept talking and it sounds as if he is a man who knows all about the stock and financial market. Every one's eyes and ears are fixed on him. It is amazing how a group of people can talk so much about money issues and discuss it as if they are going to be here on earth throughout the whole of eternity.

I am that close to judging but I shall end here. In my heart there is this tinge of sadness and I prayed for these persons based on my burdens for them. May they see their lives as more than just growing money all the time.

Well, time to end here.

"'If you follow my decrees and are careful to obey my commands, 4 I will send you rain in its season, and the ground will yield its crops and the trees of the field their fruit. 5 Your threshing will continue until grape harvest and the grape harvest will continue until planting, and you will eat all the food you want and live in safety in your land." Leviticus 26:3-5

Natural Calamities Can Happen Anywhere

I had wanted to blog this two days ago but kept forgetting about it. It was Wednesday evening. I just got home from tea with a friend. I needed to scan a set of music score for a sister-in-Christ who requested for it. As I was kneeling down doing the scanning, suddenly I felt kind of giddy and decided to lie down on my bed for a while. I thought it was due to my slight fever and mild diarrhoea that I had this spell. It did not help lying down as my bed was also rattling. It was then I realised it was not that I felt dizzy but that the whole block was swaying. I suspected that it was an earthquake, probably in Indonesia.

The amazing thing, after I realised it was a tremor, was this -prior to the earth moving from under my feet (using the lyrics of a famous pop song), my doggy, Sasha, was barking madly and I have never seen her behaving in this manner before. I kept scolding her and commanded her to keep quiet. Usually when she hears this instruction, she would quickly lie flat on the ground and lean her head on the grill but this time round, she did not. The barking continued.

When the swaying began, she was jumping up and down and was even howling at one point. I guess I learnt one new characteristic of a dog. They can actually detect earth movements way before humans could. I do not know whether her consistent barking was to warn my grandma and I of an imminent danger.

I was contemplating whether to go downstairs and remain in the open for a while. Before I could act upon it, the tremor ceased and Sasha also kept quiet and began to drink her water.

Then the next morning came and while I was still in bed, I could hear again Sasha barking as intensely as the previous evening. Not long after, the tremor came and my bed shook again. The poor doggy howled for a while and stopped when the swaying ceased.

These two incidents gave me the jitters that though Singapore may be a distant away from the Pacific Ring of Fire, we are still not spared of the after-shocks. I just wondered what would it be if there is an even stronger quake one day... would the buildings in Singapore just sway or would there be an even worst outcome?

I guess one cannot take for granted that Singapore is always safe from all these natural calamities and for that matter, terrorism - which is so prevalent in the world.

I have learn not to neglect this area of prayer and trust that the Lord will keep us safe. Even should there be a crisis that He will give the government and the people the wisdom to know how to overcome it.

Thanks be to God so far for making Singapore a safe place to live in.

I shared two days ago that I am actually struggling with my Missions Ministry responsibilities. Well, I guess the Lord has heard my prayers and He has since helped me deal with one matter. It seems to have fallen in place after many emails being sent back and forth to clarify the issue. I just need to remind myself that ultimately God is in control - all I need is to avail myself and let Him work through me.

With that, I guess I can have the peace of mind to attend the Youth Ministry Mentors' Retreat which will be in a couple of hours' time.

Thanks be to God also that I am much better physically. Hallelujah!

"Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture." Psalm 37:3

Is God Near Or Are We Far?

I just came back from a walk with my doggy. I have been cooped up at home the whole day as I was not feeling too well. I was a little feverish and my tummy was churning though the mild diarrhoea I had two days ago has more or less recovered. The panadol and charcoal tablets I took made a lot of difference.

It has been a long while since I slept so much. When I woke up this morning, I felt rather weak. After I washed up, I took a little porridge that grandma made and the medication mentioned above. Next thing I knew when I laid on bed, I was fast asleep till past noon. Took another round of medication and slept for a few more hours. I had porridge again for dinner and decided to go for a stroll as my heart was burdened over a few matters and people.

I thank God for the time spent with Him in prayer. I am still burdened over my Missions Ministry - sometimes I still feel inadequate to deal with the matters that need my immediate attention. I want to do them but there is just this inertia and perhaps lack of faith. I told the Lord that I cannot go on in this manner - I hope He will provide me the guidance as I press on.

These past few days I have been encountering friends and siblings-in-Christ who are down, angry and confused. Some are going through setbacks faced in school or work; some are confused as to why certain people behaved the way they do (the walk the talk; talk the walk thingy); some are torn apart because of relationship issues.

In my conversation with them, many wondered where God is during this trying period. Some are not even praying because they found no point since they felt God is far away. It saddens my heart because it reminded me of those times when I felt this way. Is God only with us during good times and when it comes to bad times, He is absent from our lives?

As I was walking along the pavement just now, I just laughed to myself (hopefully no one saw me doing that) - it is so funny as in how we, humans, sometimes treat God. I say this because I am equally guilty of it.

Ever reflected on this before that during good and bad times, somehow God still seems to disappear in our lives?

Do you not agree that during the good times of our lives, usually we forget that God is there because we dwell too much in those pleasant moments? Sometimes in our over-happiness we forgot who was the One who gave us this opportunity to be joyful. We just enjoyed the good life and completely shun God aside.

Then comes those occasional setbacks we face. When we are in this unpleasant situation, suddenly God came to mind but then we start to blame Him for not being there for us or for causing us to be in this "shit-hole" that we are in. I am using this negative term because I hear that all the time from the mouths of those who are frustrated and angry. I used it a couple of times myself.

Who is God to us that He is to be treated so lightly? Have we forgotten who He is - that He is the Almighty One; that He created you and I; that He not did give up on us when we rebelled but sent His One and only Son to die for our sins on the cross so that we can live again and enjoy what we have now?

Whether we like to hear this or not, God is with us all the time. The question we need to ask ourselves is where are we in this relationship? If we are not praying, we are then fighting life's battles on our own; if we are not reading His Word, then how do we know what He wants us to do or be assured of His omni-presence; if we are not sharing our burdens with one another as siblings-in-Christ or for that matter, with God, in prayer, then one day we will explode because everything is welled up within us.

The last thing I want to share is probably the hardest to chew - is God really our God? If He is, then surely we will not blame Him for the bad times we occasionally encounter. If He is the Lord and Saviour of our lives, then surely in good times we will still remember Him. If God is truly the loving Father we regard Him to be, then surely He will not desert us when we are in our pits. If God is Almighty, then in every situation we are in, both pleasant and unpleasant, praise will still come forth our mouths and not the negative words that we sometimes use.

Let us evaluate on the above-mentioned before we conclude that God is far away. He speaks in many ways: through prayer; through His Word; through others; through circumstances; through direct encounters; through dreams; through visions; through praise; through sermons... are we listening enough? Are we trying to only pick those things that we want to hear and throw away those we refuse to when in actual fact God wants us to listen to everything He says? Do we trust Him enough to see trials and setbacks as a moulding process? Yes, it is a painful period but think of the end-result - our faith will be strengthened; our character developed; our stand firmed up.

You realised I did not mention anything about the devil. I decided not to because I am not going to give him credit for this trying times that we go through. He can try all he wants to bring us down but the fact is, victory is already on our sides. Why should we be afraid of him? Why live a life as if we are defeated when we are actually victors?

What matters now is for us to refocus our eyes away from the trials we are facing and fixed them on Jesus instead. Never give up.

I shall end here with a poem that I read from a sister-in-Christ's blog. I thought it is appropriate to do so though it is long.

God Does Not Give Up On Us

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...

I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

He said, "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo."

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me, "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?"."

I would not quit on the bamboo and likewise I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said."The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in returned.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can.

"I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

God Listens!

Two Youth Ministry Mentors (YMMs) were hospitalised for severe food poisoning. Thank God one of them is discharged today and the other is recovering well. I hope this is not a spiritual attack as the YMMs are supposed to go on a retreat this weekend to discuss about the future plans for the Youth Ministry (YM). Anyway, what matters now is that God will strengthen the bodies of my two siblings-in-Christ!

Yesterday just before I left the Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean, Chin Chuan, after he knocked off from work, came by to talk to me. He was telling me how tired his work can be at times since he has to stand for almost 8 hours serving the customers and also clearing the tables each time they were vacated. He just worked in Coffee Bean for a year but he said he enjoys it there compared to his previous job of 7 years. He told me he was being bullied and that his salary was also low.

Sometimes I could sense his frustrations especially when he tries to speak - he stutters quite a bit. There were a couple of times I asked of the Lord to loosen his tongue so that he does not have to take so much effort to converse. Well, I guess it is up to God to do so if He so wants Chin Chuan to be healed of this disability.

Anyway, he smiled after he poured out his woes. Before he left, he went to disturb his colleagues. I can see that they are a friendly lot, talking and disturbing him as well.

I am meeting a brother-in-Christ soon and later another friend. I hope the Lord will sustain me. I am actually a little unwell too - last night I had a slight fever. Now I am still feeling a little hot. This morning I had a mild diarrhoea. I quickly took two panadols and also two Lomotil tablets - hopefully that will curb the problems.

Throughout the whole of yesterday while I was on the MSN, I spoke to at least three persons who are currently discouraged over different issues in their lives. Since I am in the know of their struggles, it is my prayer that the Lord will give me the ability to encourage them, if not, just lending a listening ear to their needs. Just as much as I am burdened for them, I guess the best thing to do is to commit them to the Lord and trust that He will be there to pull them through.

Okie, I am hungry. I shall stop here and order my usual Smoked Salmon with Panini bread. Till I blog again, the Lord bless and keep you all!

"Is any one of you in trouble? He should pray. Is anyone happy? Let him sing songs of praise. Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven." James 5:13-15

My Help Comes From The Lord

Last night I wrote an email to my boss to request for an extension of my Sabbatical. I was initially scheduled to return to work on 17 September but after much thought, I decided to do so on 1 October instead. I received a reply from him and he has given me the green light to do so. Yay! Oh no! I think after one year of break from work, I am becoming a bummer. Anyway, I will be on no-pay leave from now till then but that is fine with me.

I made this request as I felt I needed to settle my thoughts properly before I go back. Lately I have been swamped with a couple of stuff that I have no time to even do some reflection. I have to also settle some matters at home so that my heart will be at ease when I start work again.

Anyway, I feel better now, knowing that I have a couple more days to do what I want. Praise the Lord for that!

Yesterday I shared about a Pastor, whom I knew and was from my church, praying for me during the ministry time on the second night of the conference. He was praying that God will show more of Him to me in the new things that I am doing and about to do. I was wondering what the Pastor meant since that night and have been praying about it.

A few thoughts came to mind and I guess it has to do with me going back to work and also ministries in church:-

1) There will be a few new responsibilities to be given to me when I go back to office. They require a lot of research and planning. They may sound daunting but I am sure I will be able to cope with them and that God will guide me accordingly.

2) Regarding ministry, I guess it has to do with Missions where there are a lot of things that I need to look into. Some are already in the process of planning while others are in the process of seeking. Many of them require a lot of faith in the Lord to provide and guide. Some also may take a longer process. I guess I have a lot of fears and burdens and perhaps the revelation made to me that night was to assure me that God is in charge and all will be fine.

The above-mentioned are just some reflections I made and I am still seeking the Lord in the days and weeks to come.

I met two brothers this afternoon to do a recce on two locations in Singapore. One was for the Youth Ministry Mentors' Retreat from this Friday to Sunday and the other was for the Youth Camp at the end of the year. I was more burdened for the latter as we have yet to secure a place for the camp to be held.

On my way to church, I took the time to pray. I told the Lord if He so desires for the youths to have a camp this year and to use that as a platform to reach out to their friends whom they are inviting, surely when we speak to the staff of Anglo-Chinese School (International), all will be decided there and then.

When we arrived at the school ground, we were impressed with the place - nice and clean and very conducive for the campers. The three of us were also concerned about the charges that we need to pay to the school for the usage of their facilities. When we enquired about it, we were told no specific fees will be charged - just a love-gift is enough. When we looked around the place, we unanimously agreed that this is the place for the camp!

The Lord just went ahead and made it so easy for the decision to be made. Thanks be to God for that. I am already looking forward to the camp though it is still three months away. Truly it is He who provides especially when it is already so late in the year to secure a camp location. Well, the Lord never fails to amaze us what He can do when we are at our wit's end.

I am back in Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean. Chin Chuan came by to greet me. I always wanted to ask him whether he prefers me to speak to him in English or Mandarin. He told me he is more comfortable with the former but he also mentioned that he cannot speak properly, not as in the language but because of his physical disability. I told him the fact that I could understand him means he is clear enough to be heard. He gave me a smile and carried on with his work. Well, a brief conversation we had but I hope the affirmation I gave him about his speech has lifted his spirit and confidence a little.

I am supposed to meet some friends for dinner but it was suddenly cancelled. I tried to get the key person to reconsider the cancellation since she is leaving this weekend but to no avail.

Anyway, I shall key off for now. Thanks be to God for today!

"I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-2

Tap On God's Unlimited Power

I have not slept so early for a couple of months already but last night after I came back from the Young Methodist Leaders' Conference (YMLC), I knocked out like a dead log at around 11pm. Usually I can only sleep after 2am. I woke up this morning feeling very fresh and all ready for a beautiful week ahead. :)

Those who knew I came back from the conference last night messaged to ask how it was. What can I say? With God's unlimited power always flowing into the lives of the youth leaders, how can it not be good?! It was wonderful!

I must warn that this blog will be very long because there are so many of God's goodness that I would like to share. Where should I start?

I think I will start with the group that I was assigned to - Group 13. It was a blessing to have known 9 new siblings-in-Christ from other churches. Initially I was worried as to how I could gel the group together but God was gracious. He brought together this gang of young leaders who are in their twenties who were so open to one another that it felt as if we have known each other for years. :) I was specially ministered to by their passion for the Lord and their willingness to share their desires to grow deeper in Him. I am also touched by the transparency in sharing their weaknesses and shortcomings. I cannot deny this but I am already missing the fellowship with them though we have known each other for only three days. Well, we have departed to our separate churches but I guess the bond has been built and the love of Christ will always bind us together. May the Lord continue to bless and keep every single one of them and may His Kingdom be expanded as they carry His light to wherever they may go.

The other joyful thing I need to share is about my knees which have been giving me a lot of pain and discomfort for a couple of months already. On the first night of the conference when everyone came together (all 350 of us), there was a ministry time and it was specifically for the healing of our physical bodies. The speaker invited all who had any physical struggles to ask God to heal them. I was skeptical initially but since we were challenged to take that time of healing ministry by faith, I decided to place my hands on both knees and prayed for the pain to go away. My hands felt warm when we began to pray and the knees felt better as time went by. I must say that the pain did not go away immediately as it was only the next morning when I woke up that it was completely gone.

Then on the second night which was also the last night, the pastor in charge of organising the conference invited those who were healed to share their testimonies. I hesitated. More than 15 persons went forward to share but I was still glued to my seat doing a few weird actions which I believe those sitting behind me had observed and wondered what I was doing. What exactly did I do? I was basically stretching my legs; twisting them around, bending and straightening them. There was a point where I went out of the hall to jump up and down. Why did I do all these funny stuff? Well, I wanted to be sure I was completely healed and healed I was. When a sister from my church went forth to share, I told myself I had to also. After she was done, I went to the front and shared with all about God's healing upon my knees. Till now, I can walk with ease and no limp at all. I am eager to start running again but I shall wait for a while before doing that. I will probably see the specialist first to see whether all is well. Thanks be to God for His healing grace. :)

The other experience I would like to share is also related to the ministry time (the one on the first day). After the healing ministry, there was also a challenge issued for those who would like to be prayed for to come forward. As there was an overwhelming response, the mentors were asked to pray instead of being catchers. The role of the catchers was basically to support those who might be slained in the Spirit to fall comfortably onto the ground. I was not prepared to pray when the instruction was issued to the mentors as all this while I was only preparing myself to catch anyone who fell. Prayed for others I did not do and I basically just stuck to my role as a catcher. :(

I did not feel good after everything was over but I basically did not think much about it and went to bed as I was tired. The next morning when I was in the toilet, I looked at myself in the mirror and wondered why I behaved the way I did the previous night. I knew I had love for all my brothers and sisters-in-Christ but I did not combine it with faith as both need to come together for God to work effectively through me. I said a prayer to Him and availed myself to be used by the Lord should there be another ministry time that day.

Of course there was and when people came forward to be prayed for, I went forth and interceded for the youth leaders. Initially I was a little guarded and started asking the person I was about to pray for, their names and the ministries they are serving in. When it came to the third person, I decided to not use my own strength and understanding to do the intercession and as I was walking to the next brother, I told the Lord to speak through me. I only asked for his name and started praying. Words came out of my mouth and I also broke out in tongues in between. After that prayer I asked the brother whether he was in the ministry I mentioned during the intercession and he said it was. I was amazed myself but all glory to God. From then on I was assured I was not ministering with my own abilities but His. I prayed further for another 5 brothers. None got slained but that was not my concern.

That same night the prayer was focused on God's anointing upon the youth leaders. When the pastors and mentors have prayed for the leaders, it was now their turn to be prayed for. When it came to my turn, a pastor whom I knew and used to be from my church, interceded for me. He basically asked the Lord to continue to show me more of Him in the new things that I am doing and about to do and before he could finish, I was already on the ground. I could feel my body trembling throughout but it was a refreshing experience.

That was not the end. The preacher invited all the pastors and mentors to stand in front of the conference hall and encouraged some of the mentor group members to stand behind their mentors. I was wondering whether I needed to be prayed for again since someone had done it for me already. Anyway, it was the preacher who prayed for me. He basically asked the Spirit of the living God to fall afresh upon me and I just dropped. Same experience as I had the first time round. When I stood back up, some youth leaders and pastors around me asked whether I was okay as I fell quite hard onto the ground as the catchers did not catch me properly. Haha. I told them I was okay. I had to be fine because in my heart I believe that if God wants me to be slained, then surely He would not want me to be hurt as I fell. :)

It was so apt that the sermon preached that night was on Elisha's double anointing. Did I receive the same thing? Perhaps and I want to thank God for allowing me to be blest with that.

Well, I was supposed to be giving in my role as a mentor but instead I received more. Thanks and all praise to God. I also give glory to Him for all that He had done through me.

I am now in Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean. Haha. I have been visiting this joint and the one in Millennia Walk so many times that I actually missed them while I was away. Guess what? After I ordered my drink and sandwiches, Chin Chuan came by and greeted me and asked how come I have not visited the cafe for a while. He also asked whether I am working today. We spoke for a while. He told me he is working on an 8-hour shift today. I really like this gentleman's smile. Hope God will continue to bless his life.

Before I end, I would like to share that God's unlimited power is always available to us. Are we tapping on it daily is the question we need to ask ourselves. I thank God that He allowed me to experience some things I hardly practise in my life at the conference and it is my desire to keep practising them throughout this life I live.

“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” Isaiah 46:4

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing." 1 Corinthians 13:1-3

Leaders With Pure Hearts

I am into the second day of the Young Methodist Leaders’ Conference. Yesterday has been a wonderful day of bonding as I got to know the rest of the mentors who are either Pastors, full-time Christian staff or leaders of the church.

As always, initially I had the qualms of having to get to know new people and all but it was not that bad afterall. I realised when the bigger body makes an effort to know each other then it is not that difficult for the individuals as they attempt to break ice with one another.

I also realised it is a lot easier to make friends with like-minded fellow siblings-in-Christ because of God’s love that binds us all together.

Praise the Lord also for the journey mercy and the rest that we all had after we arrived at the Holiday Inn Resort. That was in the afternoon.

In the evening after dinner, all the mentors met up in one of the conference rooms for a time of worship, prayer, devotion and briefing.

The TRAC President in his exhortation, shared the need for us leaders to tap on the power of God in everything we do. He also warned the mentors that as we lead our designated groups and as we affirmed the qualities of each youth leaders that we do not just focused on those who are eloquent in their speeches, more outgoing and popular.

He also urged us to look at those who are quieter and less participative as there is also potential in these persons for God to use in the church and in this world.

He said leadership is not just about the abilities of one individual possessed but also having the heart for the Lord and the people. Rev. Wee reminded us that at the end of the day it is the heart that shapes one character and I totally agree with Him.

We can have a leader who is an all-rounder but if he does not have the heart for God and His people, then he is just a noisy cymbal. I thought that was a very good wake-up call for all as we seek to serve the Lord and His people.

Well, I was not too sure how to lead the group as every one will be coming from different churches and all. Yesterday during the time of prayer, the Lord reminded me that I am an instrument that He can use to bless others. All I need is my availability and not just my ability. I guess I shall leave the worries to Him and just do what is required of me – that is to facilitate and challenge the group members to act upon what they will be learning in the next three days or so. Hallelujah!

I guess that is all for now. I just woke up. Thanks be to God for the good sleep I had. I was so tired last night that not long after I laid on the bed that I entered into slumberland without much problems. I am looking forward to a great day ahead.

May the Lord be my help in all that I do today.

"He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to an idol or swear by what is false. He will receive blessing from the LORD and vindication from God his Savior." Psalm 24:4-5

Hate The Sin, Love The Sinner

Yesterday while I was on my way home in the North-East Line, I chanced upon a man suffering from cerebral palsy. He was wheel-chair bound but was independent. He stays in the same neighbourhood as I am apparently - both of us alighted at the same station.

Anyway, we were in the last carriage. Though it was less crowded, there was this group of students (I shall not name the school to safeguard its reputation) who were rather rowdy. Anyway, I left them as they were till a certain point.

You see, they took notice of the disabled man. They were sniggering and all. I happened to listen to a couple of comments being made on one repeated action of the man. Because of his condition, some of his fingers were bent and so happened, the only finger that was straight is his middle one. They kept laughing when that middle finger was pointed at the man himself. Then when he moved his hand, that same finger pointed at some of their friends and they commented that this man was gesturing a bad sign to them. One of them even scolded him. Obviously the poor individual was oblivious to the whole thing.

The last straw for me was when they started to gesture the bad sign towards the man. I raised my voice at 7 of them - 5 boys and two girls - and told them to stop all the nonsense. Of course they were not very pleased when I embarrassed them in public.

I knew one of them was very dissatisfied. I identified myself to this teen and asked him why he was showing such a black face and whether what I did was wrong. He kept quiet. I explained to him that he was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy a normal life. Then I noticed he had a cut on his hand and decided to use that as an example by illustrating a scenario in which that wound could have been infected and in due time turned gangrenous and then it has to be amputated. Of course this example is quite far-fetched but I asked him how would he have felt if he had only one arm? I told him that it was already tough for the man to have to fend for himself wherever he goes, why make things even harder for him by hurling insults?

I also told this student that the mere fact he was angry with me for having embarrassed him in public by chiding all of them showed very clearly that every one has feelings. If he had felt insulted by my rebuke, then surely that man could have been affected as well when they taunted him though he might not have shown it.

I asked this boy again whether what I said made sense and he nodded his head. I gave him a pat on the shoulder and allowed him to return to his friends. I warned the rest to behave themselves when in public. They were quiet. The train arrived at my station. Together with the man on the motorised wheel-chair, we alighted.

I am saddened by the students' lack of compassion. I know I cannot change whatever mindset an individual has towards those who are less fortunate but if I were to encounter an incident as the one I have just related and had to say something to him, then I would.

I shall stop here for now.

"Arise, LORD! Lift up your hand, O God. Do not forget the helpless." Psalm 10:12

Old Relationship Rekindled; New Friendship Formed

I visited two Coffee Bean branches. One was planned and the other was not. I was at the Millennia Walk outlet to get some preparations done for the Young Methodist Leaders' Conference (YMLC) and also to ponder on some matters pertaining to the Missions Ministry. I also needed to get out of the house for some fresh air as I am not feeling too well.

I could not sleep properly last night as my nose was flowing like a running tap. I was also sneezing so much that I felt as if my nose was going to drop off any time and my eyes popping out of their sockets. Even now I am still sniffing.

I was touched by the kind gesture of one of the supervisers. When she knew that I was having a flu and that my throat was sore, she got me a cup of ginseng and peppermint tea (on the house) and a while later she also bought me a packet of lozenges. I thank God that through the many visits and the efforts made to get to know the staff, some friendships have been formed.

When I was done with my stuff, I left for Ngee Ann City as I needed to visit Kinokuniya Bookstore to collect some books I ordered. While I was browsing through one of the sections, I bumped into my primary school teacher. The surprising thing was her ability to recognise me after so many years - 23 years, to be exact! She could even remember my name. Wow! I suggested catching up with her over a drink and she mentioned Coffee Bean.

I asked her how come she could recognise me? She said she remembers me as the first prefect in the school to receive a public caning. Sigh - I am remembered for the wrong reasons. She was also shocked that I am in the teaching profession because she again remembered me as one student who spoke more Hokkien than any of the recognised languages (English and Mandarin, that is) in the school.

I am glad to have caught up with one key individual who has played a part in my growing up years. It is amazing after so long we can have this reunion. I was also saddened to know that two of the teachers who once taught me have passed away. One of them was very patient with me when I created so much problems in school. He would always spend time to counsel me but obviously I did not heed his advice. I am going to miss him but it is too late to let him know that I have turned over a new leaf. Thank you, Mr. Lim.

Well, as Mrs Kwok needed to leave to meet some of her friends, she left first while I decided to stay on to blog about this. I managed to get her contact number and may consider planning a reunion of classmates and teachers - that is if I can get hold of some of them.

Okie, it is almost 7pm. Time for me to key off soon. I emailed my YMLC Mentor Group earlier when I was at Millennia Walk. Though we may be from different churches and age-groups, I pray we will all have a great time of fellowship at the conference.

Oh yah, I almost forgot - I got to know the name of the Ngee Ann City Coffee Bean staff whom I shared was not too friendly. He saw me just now, came over to my table and gave me a big smile. Haha. He looked very comical (in the good sense) when he gave me the widest smile. I could hardly see his eyes. I quickly asked for his name - he tried to speak but I could not hear him properly. I read his name-tag and finally got to know the identity of this interesting individual. Praise the Lord for Chin Chuan!

Alright, I shall stop now. Thanks be to God for this day, for the Coffee Bean superviser, for my Primary School teacher and also the two who have since passed on and of course for my new-found friend whom once I thought was very proud and unfriendly! :)

"This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24