I did not really sleep much last night as I was busy packing. After that I was just spending some time praying - asking God to help me when I go back to Singapore. I would want to say "go back to the routines" but I shall try to see how I can break that and make life less mundane. I also allocated some time just praising God for all that He went through with me in my retreat - listening to me when I shared my heart out with Him (my hurts, fears, disappointments, frustrations, disillusionment, doubts, etc), allowing Him to speak to me by being still and also reading His Word, and also using people like George and Laurel to provide me counsel.
I am going home with mixed feelings - I am excited but at the same time, burdened. I desire to improve my relationship with my loved ones but a lot depends on whether they want to or not. I still sense a wall being built by some of them but I will not let that affect me. I guess I will persevere in this and hopefully time will show them my sincerity in building my relationship with them.
Yesterday and today my chest feels a little tight but the medication helps. Praise God for that.
I just had another round of yummy breakfast with Laurel and the family. George has left for work so he could not join us.
I am going to miss the four of them and truly I been ministered through their lives this past one week. May God continue to bless and keep them in everything they do and may their lives shine brightly as they serve God and His people here in The Netherlands.
Okie, I shall do some last-minute packing. I am trying to squeeze everything I bought into the little luggage I brought. It looks impossible. Though George lent me a small bag, I shall try to see whether I can make do without it. I think I am crazy to have overbought one particular item but they have been purchased and now I am praying for a miracle that my luggage will expand just a little more. Haha. What is left are my toiletry and the cables/chargers bags. :)
I am going to miss this place and the people but life must go on!
I am going home with mixed feelings - I am excited but at the same time, burdened. I desire to improve my relationship with my loved ones but a lot depends on whether they want to or not. I still sense a wall being built by some of them but I will not let that affect me. I guess I will persevere in this and hopefully time will show them my sincerity in building my relationship with them.
Yesterday and today my chest feels a little tight but the medication helps. Praise God for that.
I just had another round of yummy breakfast with Laurel and the family. George has left for work so he could not join us.
I am going to miss the four of them and truly I been ministered through their lives this past one week. May God continue to bless and keep them in everything they do and may their lives shine brightly as they serve God and His people here in The Netherlands.
Okie, I shall do some last-minute packing. I am trying to squeeze everything I bought into the little luggage I brought. It looks impossible. Though George lent me a small bag, I shall try to see whether I can make do without it. I think I am crazy to have overbought one particular item but they have been purchased and now I am praying for a miracle that my luggage will expand just a little more. Haha. What is left are my toiletry and the cables/chargers bags. :)
I am going to miss this place and the people but life must go on!
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