I just came back from lunch. I had wanted to eat Ramly burger at Geylang Serai but the stall that I usually go to is closed. I think they are only opened in the evening.
Anyway, I met my psychologist-friend for breakfast early this morning as that is the only time he was free. It was a good two-hour session with this dear brother-in-Christ as he listened to the account of my retreat and also the lessons I have learnt. I also submitted my journals to him. He is glad to see the positive progress and encouraged me to continue to press on. He said I am on the right track. Hallelujah!
I am glad to know that it is okay to be burdened for my loved ones but it has to come with the trust I place in God as well.
He told me not to be too troubled by their indifference at times because the joy is always in giving to my loved ones what God has placed in my heart for them. Despite of their unresponsiveness, my friend told me that inside them, they know I still love and care for them. It is just that sometimes their own struggles or pride or unwillingness to let go of something or being controlled by circumstances or persons are stopping them from responding.
Just as much as I want them to spare a thought for me, I have to also do likewise. That is why I have not stopped praying for my loved ones several times a day because I know that is the best I can do for now but it is also the most effective because my God is great and He will be there to walk with them. It may be one way because I will not always know whether there is progress in their lives but sometimes faith is just about that - to hope for something unseen but in my heart, I know God is at work always for the person/s I am praying for.
It is interesting to note that despite of the fact that I do not talk to some of my loved one as much as I would like to and sometimes feeling far away from them, through these few sessions I have with my friend, I am actually learning a lot about them. I guess sometimes it is in circumstances like this that I learn to cherish them more and to also not take them for granted. What I have been going through lately has caused me to see the uniqueness in them and I have never stopped giving thanks to God daily for blessing me this kinship. :)
I was feeling a little unwell last night after I came home from my cell group Bible study. My chest was tight. I basically took some medication, which now reminds me that I need to go buy more as they are running out. I wanted to sleep but could not as my mind was preoccupied with some thoughts. I just sat on my bed and prayed. After that I read a book which my sister gave me.
I was able to identify with some of the issues mentioned by the author whom I got to know through my sister. As the chapters were short, by the time I felt sleepy, I was already half-way through.
I shall stop here. I need to prepare some stuff for the mission trip.
To God be the glory! :)
Anyway, I met my psychologist-friend for breakfast early this morning as that is the only time he was free. It was a good two-hour session with this dear brother-in-Christ as he listened to the account of my retreat and also the lessons I have learnt. I also submitted my journals to him. He is glad to see the positive progress and encouraged me to continue to press on. He said I am on the right track. Hallelujah!
I am glad to know that it is okay to be burdened for my loved ones but it has to come with the trust I place in God as well.
He told me not to be too troubled by their indifference at times because the joy is always in giving to my loved ones what God has placed in my heart for them. Despite of their unresponsiveness, my friend told me that inside them, they know I still love and care for them. It is just that sometimes their own struggles or pride or unwillingness to let go of something or being controlled by circumstances or persons are stopping them from responding.
Just as much as I want them to spare a thought for me, I have to also do likewise. That is why I have not stopped praying for my loved ones several times a day because I know that is the best I can do for now but it is also the most effective because my God is great and He will be there to walk with them. It may be one way because I will not always know whether there is progress in their lives but sometimes faith is just about that - to hope for something unseen but in my heart, I know God is at work always for the person/s I am praying for.
It is interesting to note that despite of the fact that I do not talk to some of my loved one as much as I would like to and sometimes feeling far away from them, through these few sessions I have with my friend, I am actually learning a lot about them. I guess sometimes it is in circumstances like this that I learn to cherish them more and to also not take them for granted. What I have been going through lately has caused me to see the uniqueness in them and I have never stopped giving thanks to God daily for blessing me this kinship. :)
I was feeling a little unwell last night after I came home from my cell group Bible study. My chest was tight. I basically took some medication, which now reminds me that I need to go buy more as they are running out. I wanted to sleep but could not as my mind was preoccupied with some thoughts. I just sat on my bed and prayed. After that I read a book which my sister gave me.
I was able to identify with some of the issues mentioned by the author whom I got to know through my sister. As the chapters were short, by the time I felt sleepy, I was already half-way through.
I shall stop here. I need to prepare some stuff for the mission trip.
To God be the glory! :)
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