I was hoping to come home to rest but when I entered the flat, I knew something was not right as everyone was black-faced. In my heart, I prayed and asked God to give me the wisdom to deal with whatever had happened when I was out.
I asked mum and she told me grandma is being forgetful again. This time she accused my brother for not giving her the money cared off to him by her godson. I was with my brother when he gave it to her just before I left for The Netherlands.
Anyway, I went to grandma's room and spoke to her. She was not very reasonable. She even remarked that I was in cahoots with my brother. I did not want to let that affect me. Instead I told her to pray about what she just said and to search her heart whether that was a right statement to make.
I left the room, went to mine. I closed the door and took the time to pray.
My brother was apparently very angry to the point where he did not stay back for dinner and left. I spoke to him just about an hour ago and he was still fuming. I encouraged him to keep his cool as we all know about grandma's condition.
All these conflicts I have experienced with my loved ones sometimes make me wonder why the people whom we are closest with can sometimes also be our greatest 'enemies.' My conclusion is this - we are basically using each other's weaknesses to our advantages as a form of defense as well as offense. It is sad but true.
I used to do that as well and the damage can be substantial. Sometimes regretting it now may just be a little too late. The scary part about all these is that though one has realised the mistake and wants to make a restitution, the other party may now use this act of reconciliation to his or her advantage and manipulate it. Well, when that happens, there will basically be no end to conflicts - just like that of what my family has been experiencing all these years.
My prayers lately have been that of asking God to take away unclean thoughts which the devil may plant in my mind - things like taking revenge on those who hurt me before; showing the other party who is in control; having the "never-back-down" attitude; etc.
That is why I am trying to deal with matters differently with my loved ones now - first of all, asking myself what would Jesus do if he is in my shoes; secondly knowing who my real enemy is; thirdly, asking also what do I achieve from finding fault with others? (Will one party be the winner or both will be losers?); and lastly loving one another!
I shall end here and go read the remaining chapters of the book my sister gave me.
Happy voting for Singapore's President tomorrow! Have a restful weekend!
Good night, all!
I asked mum and she told me grandma is being forgetful again. This time she accused my brother for not giving her the money cared off to him by her godson. I was with my brother when he gave it to her just before I left for The Netherlands.
Anyway, I went to grandma's room and spoke to her. She was not very reasonable. She even remarked that I was in cahoots with my brother. I did not want to let that affect me. Instead I told her to pray about what she just said and to search her heart whether that was a right statement to make.
I left the room, went to mine. I closed the door and took the time to pray.
My brother was apparently very angry to the point where he did not stay back for dinner and left. I spoke to him just about an hour ago and he was still fuming. I encouraged him to keep his cool as we all know about grandma's condition.
All these conflicts I have experienced with my loved ones sometimes make me wonder why the people whom we are closest with can sometimes also be our greatest 'enemies.' My conclusion is this - we are basically using each other's weaknesses to our advantages as a form of defense as well as offense. It is sad but true.
I used to do that as well and the damage can be substantial. Sometimes regretting it now may just be a little too late. The scary part about all these is that though one has realised the mistake and wants to make a restitution, the other party may now use this act of reconciliation to his or her advantage and manipulate it. Well, when that happens, there will basically be no end to conflicts - just like that of what my family has been experiencing all these years.
My prayers lately have been that of asking God to take away unclean thoughts which the devil may plant in my mind - things like taking revenge on those who hurt me before; showing the other party who is in control; having the "never-back-down" attitude; etc.
That is why I am trying to deal with matters differently with my loved ones now - first of all, asking myself what would Jesus do if he is in my shoes; secondly knowing who my real enemy is; thirdly, asking also what do I achieve from finding fault with others? (Will one party be the winner or both will be losers?); and lastly loving one another!
I shall end here and go read the remaining chapters of the book my sister gave me.
Happy voting for Singapore's President tomorrow! Have a restful weekend!
Good night, all!
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