Housework, Packing And Leaving

I am catching a breather now and also giving my nose a rest. Since coming home from the missions training, I have been doing housework: bathed the hammies, love-bird and doggy; changed all the bedsheets in all three rooms; did the laundry - I had to do twice (one for the clothes and the other for the bedsheets); just swept and mopped the floor.

I have been sneezing due to my flu. Just took the medication. I have some more packing to do for the trip. In a couple of hours' time, I will be flying off already and frankly it has not really dawned upon me yet that I am leaving though this was planned about a month ago. I do not know whether this is a bad or good thing.

My heart has been troubled since coming home because my concerns and burdens for my loved ones are making it difficult for me to leave peacefully. I guess later when I am at the airport, I will find a quiet spot to pray and surrender my parents, grandma, brother and sister to God and trust that He will take good care of them while I am away.

I am more worried for grandma as I know she will miss me. She has been asking me non-stop when am I leaving but I had to be patient with her by giving her the same answers. I am ready to incur huge telephone bills as I know she would be calling me while I am away. Anyway, I did ask my parents to remind her that I am not in Singapore - probably that may minimise the calls from grandma.

I guess this trip is different from others because it is a time for me to be refreshed, to do some soul-searching, to spend a lot of time praying for God to make things right within me, in my relationships with my loved ones especially those which had been strained. As much as I am doing my part, I also hope that my loved are doing theirs in mending these broken relationships. I just hope they will be restored so that the fellowship can go on.

All I can do now is hope in the Lord.

I have this feeling that I have forgotten to pack a couple of things but I just cannot put a finger as to what they are.

I shall stop here. Need to clear some rubbish in all the bins and then finish up my packing.

I guess when I board the plane at 1.40am tomorrow, I shall just sleep.