Monday, March 17, 2008

Living While Dying

The weekend has been filled with my involvement in two weddings - one as a Day Coordinator for my ex-Sunday School student whom I taught more than 10 years ago; the other was as a Wedding Photographer for an ex-Methodist Youth Fellowship sister-in-Christ.

It was a joy to see the both of them having found their life-partners and now entering into a new chapter of their journeys. I had fun coordinating and taking pictures respectively. All thanks and glory to God!

When I got home last night, I was just so dead-beat! After editing the photos, I slept like a log but had to wake up early this morning for work. Praise the Lord for sustaining me till now. I felt like a zombie throughout the day. Haha!

Oh yah, at both weddings I bumped into a few friends from secondary school, pre-university and army - the photographer for the wedding I was coordinating on Saturday is an ex-secondary schoolmate. Interestingly, we both have the same Christian name. When we saw each other, we knew we have met before but could not recall when and where. It was through the deduction process that we finally got the answers.

Then yesterday at the Indian wedding, I met a secondary school classmate. He was the Wedding Planner. He started his own events company after he finished his studies. Next was a classmate from pre-unversity days. He is an Indian national but is now a permanent resident of this island-nation. I remembered him as one who is very good at Mathematics. Whenever I had problems, he would be the first person to go to. The other friend was a Regimental Sergeant Major (RSM) from a unit I was attached to whenever we have to fulfill our reservist obligations. Instinctively, I addressed him as "Sir" and when we heard that, we both laughed!

Well, it was a great reunion with all of them. We exchanged our contact details. Hopefully we will meet again soon to catch up.

I am looking forward to the Good Friday/Easter long weekend - cannot wait to rest as much as I can then.

This week my church is observing Holy Week. Every night there will be a service. I am hoping to attend all of them but there is no guarantee as it is another busy period at work.

I was at the service just now and interestingly, the guest speaker was touching on the topic about death. Yesterday when I was having lunch with a few siblings-in-Christ after church, a brother mentioned that he would like to be at his own funeral just so that he can listen to what people would say about him.

It got me thinking about it as I was on my way home to collect my camera equipment before proceeding on with my photography assignment. I am not faulting my brother for his desire to be at his own funeral. In fact I began to wonder also what people would remember me for when I am no more in their midst.

My conclusion is this - how I live now will determine what people would remember me for when I leave this world. But there is one more thing I hope others will remember - that is the God who lives in me! I use the present tense because God will forever be with me. Hallelujah for that!

I will always struggle with the weaknesses and sins in me (because I am a human) but I hope they will be overshadowed by how I also desire to live the way God wants me to (because I am His child) - that is to be more Christ-like and to let God use my life to impact those around me.

If I continue to practise the above-mentioned, then I will have no fear of how I would be remembered at my funeral when my pilgrim's journey have reached its end. May God's name be glorified ultimately!

The words of a song, Find Us Faithful, came to mind....

Verse 1:
We're pilgrims on the journey
of the narrow road
and those who've gone before us line the way -
cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary;
their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace.

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses,
let us run the race not only for the prize.
But as those who've gone before us;
let us leave to those behind us -
the heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives.

Chorus:
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful.
May the fire of our devotion light their way.
May the footprints that we leave,
lead them to believe
and the lives we live inspire them to obey.
Oh, may all who come behind us find us faithful.

Verse 2:
After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone
and our children sift though all we've left behind -
may the clues that they discover
and the memories they uncover
become the light that leads them
to the road they each must find.

We will never know when we will die. It could be the next minute or the next day or the next year. Sometimes I told myself, it would not be so soon. Who am I to kid?

We all have to start living while dying. It is interesting to note that immediately after birth, we are already dying!

Haha. Morbid subject to start the week off. :)

Time to sleep!

Good night, everyone and have a blessed week ahead!

"Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize." 1 Corinthians 9:19-27

"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing." 2 Timothy 4:7-8

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