From 9am to 5pm, I attended a course called "Calling & Destiny" by Kwan Yew Beng of Arrows Ministry.
It was a good time for me as I was reminded of the need to seek God for His calling in my life - to obey Him wherever He wants me to go and to do whatever He wants me to do. I was also challenged to reflect on my value system because like it or not, the values I hold in my life will affect the way I think. It is my prayer that my values are in line with that of God's. If not, it is important that I begin to review and change them accordingly.
One exercise we did touched me deeply and that 1/2 hour or so was a ministry time for me by the Holy Spirit. We were encouraged by the speaker to chart our lives' time-line from birth to the time we knew God to learning more about Him and ourselves through the trials we faced and the gifts and talents He has given us to using them for ministry and finally to reaching a moment where we are sure of our destiny.
That short period allowed me to reflect on my past - how when I was young I had a good relationship with my dad but a bad one with my mum (especially the physical abuses she subjected me to); how I refused to study just so that I can spite my mum for always comparing me to my cousins and her friends' children; how I joined a gang and got influenced by them; how I came to know God as my Lord and Saviour and for Him to affirm my gifts and talents; how I got into the Normal Stream because my Primary School Leaving Examination result was bad; how I failed my 'O' Level examinations twice and having to do my Secondary School education in 6 years rather than 4; how God changed my perspective of studies and honouring my parents (regardless of how imperfect they may be) with it through Rev. Melvin Huang's counsel; how I did well for my 'A' Level examination though I was in a private school (thanks again to Rev. Melvin's strict guidance and monitoring); how my parents (this was when I really forgave my mum and had a reconciliation with her) and grandma turned their lives to Christ; how I adopted my God-daughter; how I did well in my first year of undergraduate studies (allowing me to do an accelerated honours course in three years rather than four) and in the end graduating with a very good degree; how I injured my kidney severely when I was playing rugby in Cambridge; how I had to endure the painful moments of having to go through dialysis treatments three times a week; how I found a job in the teaching industry; how there were ups and downs when I was struggling with my kidney injury; how I broke up with my girlfriend of four years because I was not sure what my future holds when my condition did not improve; how I enjoyed teaching; how the doctor declared me healthy again and not having to undergo dialysis anymore; how I failed in a relationship attempt with someone I love dearly; how I was offered a Master's programme and completing them through the grace of God; how I adopted my God-sister; and now how I am still blessed with a stable job and serving the Lord joyfully in church.
The above-mentioned were significant moments of my life. Though there were many ups and downs, the fact that I am still here being able to write them down speaks volumes of God's faithfulness, goodness and blessings in my life. All glory to Him for the achievements He has given me thus far.
Yesterday I shared about my frustrations regarding my busted knee but today I was made to realise that at the end of it all, God will see me through it as He had always been in this pilgrim's journey I have travelled so far.
There are still many roads for me to trot; many adventures for me to experience; and many more lessons for me to learn - I pray I will be able to press on till the day I finally breathe my last and I sure hope God would say to me, "Well done, you good and faithful servant!"
Thanks be to God for helping me focus my eyes back to Him rather than the pain I am experiencing now on my left knee.
Guess what? I am having a bad flu now (I have been sneezing my lungs out since I came home) - I do not know whether this is warfare or what but it is amazing how in preparing to serve the Lord tomorrow in the Worship Team, I had to have a quarrel with my mum and brother and then to have my knee busted and now my nose running like water gushing out from a tap.
Having written so much, I have to say this in closing - God never fails us even at times when we have failed Him. This is the God I worship and serve and I am proud to let the whole world know about Him. Hallelujah!
Have to say this too - time for me to watch the Liverpool - Chelsea match! Go, Liverpool! You'll never walk alone because Andy is right behind you! :)
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." Jeremiah 17:7-8
It was a good time for me as I was reminded of the need to seek God for His calling in my life - to obey Him wherever He wants me to go and to do whatever He wants me to do. I was also challenged to reflect on my value system because like it or not, the values I hold in my life will affect the way I think. It is my prayer that my values are in line with that of God's. If not, it is important that I begin to review and change them accordingly.
One exercise we did touched me deeply and that 1/2 hour or so was a ministry time for me by the Holy Spirit. We were encouraged by the speaker to chart our lives' time-line from birth to the time we knew God to learning more about Him and ourselves through the trials we faced and the gifts and talents He has given us to using them for ministry and finally to reaching a moment where we are sure of our destiny.
That short period allowed me to reflect on my past - how when I was young I had a good relationship with my dad but a bad one with my mum (especially the physical abuses she subjected me to); how I refused to study just so that I can spite my mum for always comparing me to my cousins and her friends' children; how I joined a gang and got influenced by them; how I came to know God as my Lord and Saviour and for Him to affirm my gifts and talents; how I got into the Normal Stream because my Primary School Leaving Examination result was bad; how I failed my 'O' Level examinations twice and having to do my Secondary School education in 6 years rather than 4; how God changed my perspective of studies and honouring my parents (regardless of how imperfect they may be) with it through Rev. Melvin Huang's counsel; how I did well for my 'A' Level examination though I was in a private school (thanks again to Rev. Melvin's strict guidance and monitoring); how my parents (this was when I really forgave my mum and had a reconciliation with her) and grandma turned their lives to Christ; how I adopted my God-daughter; how I did well in my first year of undergraduate studies (allowing me to do an accelerated honours course in three years rather than four) and in the end graduating with a very good degree; how I injured my kidney severely when I was playing rugby in Cambridge; how I had to endure the painful moments of having to go through dialysis treatments three times a week; how I found a job in the teaching industry; how there were ups and downs when I was struggling with my kidney injury; how I broke up with my girlfriend of four years because I was not sure what my future holds when my condition did not improve; how I enjoyed teaching; how the doctor declared me healthy again and not having to undergo dialysis anymore; how I failed in a relationship attempt with someone I love dearly; how I was offered a Master's programme and completing them through the grace of God; how I adopted my God-sister; and now how I am still blessed with a stable job and serving the Lord joyfully in church.
The above-mentioned were significant moments of my life. Though there were many ups and downs, the fact that I am still here being able to write them down speaks volumes of God's faithfulness, goodness and blessings in my life. All glory to Him for the achievements He has given me thus far.
Yesterday I shared about my frustrations regarding my busted knee but today I was made to realise that at the end of it all, God will see me through it as He had always been in this pilgrim's journey I have travelled so far.
There are still many roads for me to trot; many adventures for me to experience; and many more lessons for me to learn - I pray I will be able to press on till the day I finally breathe my last and I sure hope God would say to me, "Well done, you good and faithful servant!"
Thanks be to God for helping me focus my eyes back to Him rather than the pain I am experiencing now on my left knee.
Guess what? I am having a bad flu now (I have been sneezing my lungs out since I came home) - I do not know whether this is warfare or what but it is amazing how in preparing to serve the Lord tomorrow in the Worship Team, I had to have a quarrel with my mum and brother and then to have my knee busted and now my nose running like water gushing out from a tap.
Having written so much, I have to say this in closing - God never fails us even at times when we have failed Him. This is the God I worship and serve and I am proud to let the whole world know about Him. Hallelujah!
Have to say this too - time for me to watch the Liverpool - Chelsea match! Go, Liverpool! You'll never walk alone because Andy is right behind you! :)
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." Jeremiah 17:7-8
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