I promised to share about how the Lord healed me of my kidney injury. I shall try to cut the story short. Well, one of them got hurt while playing rugby in Cambridge, United Kingdom, in 1998. I remember it was a match against an Irish team.
While trying to tackle one of my opponents, he pushed me and I fell awkwardly. After the match my back felt sore but I thought that was normal. I suspected it was more of a muscle pull than one of my internal organs being punctured.
Anyway, it was only one week later when I was back in Singapore that something went terribly wrong. While I was in the toilet answering nature's call, there was this smell of oxide - like something in the loo was rusty. When I looked down at the toilet bowl, I got a shock of my life - the whole bowl was red. I was basically urinating blood.
My parents rushed me to the Accident and Emergency Department. After the doctor heard my account and did a preliminary assessment, he warded me. Throughout the next few days, tests were done; scans were made by the renal specialists. Then came the diagnosis that one kidney was punctured.
The doctors were contemplating whether to surgically remove it as it was already infected. Till date I am puzzled as to why it was not done. Not that I wanted to go for the operation though.
Anyway, one treatment was for sure and that was dialysis. Three times a week and each session lasted three hours. I had to apply for a one-year no pay leave as it was a difficult period for me... not just physically but spiritually, mentally and emotionally.
I always feel very tired; I was confused as to why God was making me suffer; I got angry and frustrated easily and I was always in a daze.
The dialysis treatment lasted me four years! It is amazing how I pulled through those trying times. During this period, I also broke up with my girl-friend of three years. It was a difficult decision on my part but at that time, I thought it was better for us to part our ways. She was contemplating whether to stay back to be with me or proceed with a scholarship to study in the United States of America. Then I also do not know what my future was going to be like. Anyway, we still remain the best of friends though she is now married. Oh yah, I got her permission to share this. Haha.
Frankly speaking, if it were not for the support and prayer given to me by mainly my siblings-in-Christ and a few other friends from outside church, I would not have pulled through my struggles.
I almost gave up on God and I was ready to give up on myself.
You want to know why I am still here and pressing on in my pilgrim's journey? During those times when I only saw darkness, my siblings-in-Christ showed me the light - they shared with me God's Word; they prayed with me; they cried with me; they bore with my constant complaints - they literally walked with me till the very day when the doctor told me I need not go for dialysis anymore because my kidney was healed miraculously!
Sometimes I felt like I was one of the scums of the earth; an outcast because of my ailment but when these kind and self-sacrificing individuals stood by me, I was constantly being reminded that I was not.
Now as I write this, all I can say and please take my word for it - God is with us not only during good times but also bad times. It is harder to see Him during moments of trials because our minds are focused on the sufferings... so much to the point where we are tricked into believing that our Heavenly Father has left us (Devil's schemes as always). In actual fact, He has always been by our sides.
Remember, everything we experience in this pilgrim's journey will come to pass. Do not let a moment of pain draw us away from our relationship with God. Life is like a puzzle - there are many pieces and there will be times when we find it tough to put the pieces together. But if we could just press on and one piece after another are put in place, we will begin to see that beautiful masterpiece. Then we know it was worth the experience.
I hope I make sense in what I have written above. It is easy for me now to write the account but it was tough going through it... am I bitter about it? Nope. I am who I am now simply because of all these adventures. All glory to God though. :) There will still be trials to come (no doubt about that) but the past struggles will strengthen us to face those to come. :)
Alright! Time for me to end soon. I have had a long day but I enjoyed it thoroughly - meeting in the morning; another meeting and lunch appointment with a dear sister in the late morning and early afternoon; helped my God-Son's parents to repair their pond; had dinner with them.
Looking forward tomorrow as it is Missions Emphasis Sunday.
Good night, everyone! Please press on in whatever you do! :)
“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12
While trying to tackle one of my opponents, he pushed me and I fell awkwardly. After the match my back felt sore but I thought that was normal. I suspected it was more of a muscle pull than one of my internal organs being punctured.
Anyway, it was only one week later when I was back in Singapore that something went terribly wrong. While I was in the toilet answering nature's call, there was this smell of oxide - like something in the loo was rusty. When I looked down at the toilet bowl, I got a shock of my life - the whole bowl was red. I was basically urinating blood.
My parents rushed me to the Accident and Emergency Department. After the doctor heard my account and did a preliminary assessment, he warded me. Throughout the next few days, tests were done; scans were made by the renal specialists. Then came the diagnosis that one kidney was punctured.
The doctors were contemplating whether to surgically remove it as it was already infected. Till date I am puzzled as to why it was not done. Not that I wanted to go for the operation though.
Anyway, one treatment was for sure and that was dialysis. Three times a week and each session lasted three hours. I had to apply for a one-year no pay leave as it was a difficult period for me... not just physically but spiritually, mentally and emotionally.
I always feel very tired; I was confused as to why God was making me suffer; I got angry and frustrated easily and I was always in a daze.
The dialysis treatment lasted me four years! It is amazing how I pulled through those trying times. During this period, I also broke up with my girl-friend of three years. It was a difficult decision on my part but at that time, I thought it was better for us to part our ways. She was contemplating whether to stay back to be with me or proceed with a scholarship to study in the United States of America. Then I also do not know what my future was going to be like. Anyway, we still remain the best of friends though she is now married. Oh yah, I got her permission to share this. Haha.
Frankly speaking, if it were not for the support and prayer given to me by mainly my siblings-in-Christ and a few other friends from outside church, I would not have pulled through my struggles.
I almost gave up on God and I was ready to give up on myself.
You want to know why I am still here and pressing on in my pilgrim's journey? During those times when I only saw darkness, my siblings-in-Christ showed me the light - they shared with me God's Word; they prayed with me; they cried with me; they bore with my constant complaints - they literally walked with me till the very day when the doctor told me I need not go for dialysis anymore because my kidney was healed miraculously!
Sometimes I felt like I was one of the scums of the earth; an outcast because of my ailment but when these kind and self-sacrificing individuals stood by me, I was constantly being reminded that I was not.
Now as I write this, all I can say and please take my word for it - God is with us not only during good times but also bad times. It is harder to see Him during moments of trials because our minds are focused on the sufferings... so much to the point where we are tricked into believing that our Heavenly Father has left us (Devil's schemes as always). In actual fact, He has always been by our sides.
Remember, everything we experience in this pilgrim's journey will come to pass. Do not let a moment of pain draw us away from our relationship with God. Life is like a puzzle - there are many pieces and there will be times when we find it tough to put the pieces together. But if we could just press on and one piece after another are put in place, we will begin to see that beautiful masterpiece. Then we know it was worth the experience.
I hope I make sense in what I have written above. It is easy for me now to write the account but it was tough going through it... am I bitter about it? Nope. I am who I am now simply because of all these adventures. All glory to God though. :) There will still be trials to come (no doubt about that) but the past struggles will strengthen us to face those to come. :)
Alright! Time for me to end soon. I have had a long day but I enjoyed it thoroughly - meeting in the morning; another meeting and lunch appointment with a dear sister in the late morning and early afternoon; helped my God-Son's parents to repair their pond; had dinner with them.
Looking forward tomorrow as it is Missions Emphasis Sunday.
Good night, everyone! Please press on in whatever you do! :)
“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12
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